I promise i will be there for you.

Even when you call me in

the middle of the night.

I promise i will.

Living in this world isn't east at all. Or should i say, living with this family isn't easy at all? I've to do like almost everything (except for looking after max) when mom is not around. House chores can already kill me please. And i've to make a trip to the hospital everyday regardless on how much work i have in school. Teachers, especially math and art, giving me stress. Those bastards at home giving me stress. Mom giving me stress. I can die anytime from now on. Obviously, my art teacher is showing biasness cos she graded me a B which is 68% for my sketchings when i did not buy flowers to school like what she asked me to.

Went town with dear yesterday after we visited mom. Ate our dinner at far east, then shopped around there. Headed to cine after that then cappage for foot massage. Haha! $13 for half an hour, cheap huh. After that went ps. And dear bought me the adidas watch which i've longed for as an early valentine present =) while i got him perfume but obviously what i've bought is so damn much cheaper. Next we went to arcade. Left ps at around 11 and back to his house.

Pictures took on the way to nyp (wont be uploading all).

PE was hell today. I fucking hate my PE teacher. She's some mad woman la. Made us run & run. & i mean run until i became giddy. She even made me & jiun run extra rounds. What the fuck! She said that im having eyebags at sucha young age. Please la, now who don't have eyebags? She also said im fat, but the fact is im the lightest in class =,=. She's crapping too much. Next was chinese lesson. Fucking irene lim held the group of us back but she only lectured jiun & daohui. So i don't see any point of holding the rest of us back =,= After recess was art. Ms nic talk & talk & 3 periods were gone just like that. Social studies next, then school ended. Walked back to art room but ms nic locked the door & went for meeting, leaving us standing outside like dumbass. Ok, then headed to long johns for lunch & walked around & left at 3plus. Reached home did house chores & homework. & here i am now, blogging. Tomorrow will be a long & busy day for me. Going nyp (poly i wana get in) tomorrow, yay! Im going bed now. Nights!

Mom, you'd be fine. Nothing will happen to you. Im always here for you no matter what <3

butterflies/fairies - my sec1 work =D

Finally i blogged. Mom will be out from house for like weeks from tomorrow onwards =( I pray that she'd be fine. Though there might be times i said i hate her, but deep in my heart i love her more than anyone else. I bet she'd cry if she sees this, haha. Oh well~ I'd be the 1 doing the house chores when shes not in. & i have to fold the clothes!! Damn. Its not that i dont wana contribute at home, but i dont like to fold clothes eh =(

Anyway, dear's been sick for the past 1 week. Hope he'd recover soon! I realized that many people was sick this year, especially my family =,= Seriously i think this year is really a tough 1 (for me la), but i'd try to overcome it no matter what. But who knows? Maybe i might collapse anytime. Ok, i think i better go before i start to crap. Bye! OH YAR, by the way i wana announce that Adriano is the cutest guy in the 7pm show!!! =p

It`s our 9th month anniversay today. Meaning, im already attached for 9 full months. Indeed fast huh. During this 9 months, many things happened regardless its bad/good. It hasnt been a smooth relationship though, but i really appreciate the things he did for the sake of me. Well, anyway Happy 9th Month Anniversary to dear & me! <3

From today onwards, it`d be a bad day for me on every tuesday & wednesday. Cos very unluckily, ng hisen mei is my fucking math teacher =( Sigh~ I dont like her. The pace she taught us is very fast. I know im biased towards her, cos theres a time when i asked her a math question & she shouted at me in front of the whole class. Like what the fuck la. The way she teach is so fast & yet she dare to shout at me & said i dont understand cos i wasnt paying attention in class =,= Oh yar! Im happy today cos joanna tan praised me LEI =D She said ; Michelle, you were very good just now, during your explanation. Walao, damn happy la! Its been so long since a teacher really praise me lo. HA HA HA! The feeling was great & i mean GREAT! Kekeke =p

I told dear about me & cute just now. Glad that hes not angry or disappointed about me =) & i read about what he wrote in the diary. Superb cute la. I love dear to the extreme! ^o^

Alright, went amk with dear last night. He wanted to sell the graphic card of his com to the cash converter, but too bad they only buy external things from people. So dear went to buy a new 1 which cost him 130+ i think. Cheap right, the old 1 cost him 300++. Can you see the big difference? Haha. Anway, after that we went to have our dinner. You can actually say we`re dumb enough to be standing in front of the chicken rice stall & discuss which soup to buy BUT the thing is the different type of soup they put on the board were 'Soup Of The Day' =,="' I think if you`re there u will find it damn stupid lo =,= Ok, then caught Kungfu Mahjong 3 at Jubilee. Fucking hilarious. It ended at 11. Cabbed back to dears house after that & we slept at 4+.

Dear complained that i didnt write much about him recently =,= Haha, hes kinda childish at times huh =x He`d kill me if he see this, haha. Theres school tomorrow. So i better get to bed now as its quite late already. Nights!

Bored bored bored! Theres cca tomorrow again. I dont wana sit outside staff room alone reading book again =,= Superb bored please. Noone to talk to also. I dont wana be a bootlicker like nabilah going around bootlicking people. I think i will study math tomorrow & do the math homework there. Seriously i hope the fucking Leong teacher wont ask me help out in the band notice board. So damn retarded la. I think at most people only take a glance at it, theres nothing attractive about it anyway. I`d rather sit there & study. I think i love to study now. HAHA, miracle man. Omfg! Is there anything wrong with me??

I just finished my chinese homework. Im glad i did so cos in the past if theres any chinese homework, i wont even bother to bring them home. But i hope i`d continue bringing my schoolwork home everyday & hand them in on time without fail =) I wana pass my math this time & i will pass my math this time =) I will try my very best not to absent from school often this year. In fact, i dont even wana be absent. Though i hate school but i still have to attend no matter what. I hope darren chong will be the 1 who motivates me. Hes the best teacher to me & i dont wana disappoint him. I WILL WORK HARD!

My friend called me a spy just now. He had a girlfriend & yet he was so close to another girl in class. His girlfriend was my good friend, i dont wana see her get hurt in the end so i told her about them. Was wrong with that? If u did nothing behind her back, why are you afraid of letting her know then? I just realized im being too nosey. I wont say anything again in the future. I thought i was being nice but i think im wrong now. When im nice, they treat me like nobody. & i found out that i`ve got another friend who lied to me. Im freaking sad about it. I dont want a friend that lied to me. From now on, i`d treat everyone the way they treated me. I think im enough of being a naive one. Like what i`ve said, friend is just a word. Time will slowly show you their true side. Trust me.

Theres school tomorrow again. How sad can that be? I dont like school, in fact i hate it. Homework everyday from tomorrow onwards, face the lame (cos they like to tell u jokes & laugh themselves) teachers, be in the same class/band with people i dont like, eat the same food at canteen, listen to principal talking rubbish(for very very long), staying back after school for art, blah blah... Weekend always passed very fast, long & boring school hours & very little time with my boyfriend. This year seems pathetic & stress to me. I hope i can cope with it, jia you!

Im talking to fang in msn now. Talking about the past, when we used to go to wangcong`s house. So damn funny la. We love going to his house last time. His room is like so cosy. Got almost everything. Tv, 2 computers & alot games ! Haha. & we always pillow fight in his room. Always take $ from him & took cab home but never returned him even a cent back. Lol~ Make fun of his dogs all that, playful right. Haha. Thinking back to the past is kinda sweet. I miss those days ! Dear is coming to my house soon. I think maybe we`d go play pool later, yay =)

Mom is sick, i hope she gets well soon ! School was kind of sucks today. Was cca & i was 1 of those who were picked out as we didnt attend cca. 10 were sec fours & fives. 5 went up to band room cause they can play instrument, the other 5 left (including me) were asked to sit outside stuff room. 3 tables, the 2 sec five girls sat at 1 table, me &nabilah 1 table & the malay guy 1 table. Not even 1 minute, nabilah took her bag & went to sit with the sec five girls. Bootlicker la, yucks. I was like sitting there alone, reading my book for almost 3 hours. & it will continued for every friday. FUCK. Seriously i dont like it. It`s really wasting my time. By the way, im in band 3 for chinese & band 4 for english. So damn freaking disappointed. Someone`s english who is LOUSIER than me is in band3. What the fuck ?! The world is becoming too unfair please. Sigh.

Dear made me kinda disappointed last night, so i shall make him pay for it tomorrow when i see him. Muhaha~ Evil laughs* =p

Finally watched Night @ the museum =) Went to watch it at tiong with laopo, daohui, winnie, peiyi & fion. Was a nice show, really funny ! Rated it 8/10. After that, went to eat mac. Crapped alot there. & theres cca tomorrow, what the hell. I think my school is superb kiasu la. Changed it to lesson time, afraid that students might play truency. Haha. But at least school ends at 1 plus on every friday, still not so bad. I hope this wont last for a short period of course. Im happy to watch movie with laopo again =) The 2nd movie we`ve watched together. Loveya girl <3

I can die of cramps anytime today =( Today was the first day of school & yet i came home at noon. I really tried my best to endure with it already but its really too pain. & my legs were shivering when im walking. I felt like an idiot when i cried. But at least im a little better when i cried, ha. & MR DARREN CHONG IS THE BEST TEACHER EVER ! When he knew i was in deep pain & i cant walked properly, he drove me back. Thats fucking nice of him right =) So touched. Thanks darren ! Sigh, i dont know howto cure this fucking cramps. It really hurts ! I hope someone understands how pain it is. Sobs =;(

To laopo & daohui ; sorry for cancelling the movie today. Make it on fri instead ?

I MISS DEAR =(

I swear i hate my family. I hate my brother. When i treat them well, they dont give a damn. Whats the point of having sucha family ? I never wanted to stay here in the first place but i`ve got no choice. I will move out of here AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. I cant stand them anymore. I hate them, i hate mom most !

School tomorrow =( So sad please. Gotta see those teachers again, sigh~ I hope my math teacher wont be ng hsien mei ! I`d be talking about new year eve now. Went to esplanade with dear to see fireworks. Its superb duperb nice =D But also superb duperb filled with people. Lots of places were closed & the police stopped people from passing through. So dear & me had a hard time walking to esplanade. We both were kinda frustrated, haha. After fireworks, walked all the way to boat quay to take bus to have mac near dear`s house. Saw queenie dear too =) Its a new year, a new beginning to all of us. So lets work hard together for our olvl this year people =) Snapped a picture of the first firework.